Indianapolis (AP) – The right platform of the Indianapolis colts, Braden Smith, said that he missed the last five games last season due to an obsessive -compulsive disorder that was so serious that he spent 48 days in a treatment center and even envisaged suicide.
The Indianapolis star published a story on Tuesday in which Smith spoke publicly for the first time why he was released. Team officials had previously declared that Smith was absent due to a personal affair but had provided no additional details.
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“I was physically present, but I should not be found,” said Smith, 29, in the interview. “I didn’t care to play football. I did not care to spend time with my family, with my wife, with my newborn son. I was a month old to put a ball in my brain. ”
Smith said that he had received a diagnosis of religious scrubulosity, which creates anxiety to engage in actions that could offend God or that could be considered blasphemous. Affligeurs can pray or act to seek repentance so often that he dominates their lives.
Smith said that he had started to see a psychologist at the start of last season and at some point, his wife told his wife, he would retire at the end of 2024 if his condition did not improve.
In November, he entered a colorado rehabilitation center and when his condition did not improve, Smith turned to a psychedelic drug, ibogaine, which is not legal in the United States, Smith credited the drugs for saving it. The treatment was administered in Mexico.
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After treatment and with continuous therapy, Smith said he was better and no longer engages in a compulsive prayer. He will return to the colts this season with a restructured contract because he wants to return to the field.
“I was not here last year,” he told the star. “I was physically here, but I was not. I want to be here again, and I want people around me to experience it, because I feel like I have something to offer to people around me.”
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